Sunday, August 30, 2009

Carrying the Baton - Portland to Coast Race

I got home from the Portland to Coast race about 4 hours ago. It was one of the most intense 37 hours I’ve spent recently. Our team, the ChevroLegs had 11 members, all women. We had 2 vans that carried us to our various legs of the race. These 11 women weren’t all friends when we loaded the van in the wee hours of Friday morning, some of us were barely acquaintances at the start of the race, but now I believe we have a connection that will last a long time. Truly, this is an amazing group of women dedicated to this event, and now to each other. And most of us are already on the 2010 team! Can’t wait. Next time, though, I’m bringing bug repellent.

The Portland to Coast race is the world's largest walking relay. It is 127 miles made up of 24 legs. We had a slap bracelet we used as a baton that we'd exchange at the beginning of each leg. Being women, we'd take the bracelet off a few yards before the chute and dry off our sweat before slapping it onto the next walker. It made me laugh every time. Bet the guys didn't dry off their sweat before passing it onto their teammate and I'll bet that teammate didn't care. Women care about sweat.

So why would I want to get up at 3 in the morning, travel for a few hours to wait my turn to compete in a relay race that takes us from the beautiful city of Portland, Oregon to the dreamlike town of Seaside, Oregon? Why would I want to be awake for a multitude of hours tending to women I hardly knew the day before, competing in complete darkness along narrow roads, sleeping (there really wasn’t any sleep but we tried) on the floors of vans, and eating food provided by the local equestrian club of whatever town we were in at the time? (Um, I didn’t ask what the food was at that point, I just ate and it was delicious.)

Why did we do this?
Well, one reason is to challenge ourselves. We not only competed against our own abilities, but we competed against other teams while becoming a connected, solid, formidable team. And we not only started out as acquaintances or less, but during the race, the ordeal, the lack of sleep and food, the multitude of bug bites, managing porta potties in complete darkness and the tenuous terrain, we became linked, we became a team and we became friends. And that, my blog friends, is why I do this.

I love connecting with people. I like knowing who they are, where they come from and what they love. I like encouraging them to meet challenges and I like to receive that same
encouragement back. It is amazing being a part of a group like the ChevroLegs; a group of compassionate, fit, caring, focused women who want to become more than who they are right now even if it means giving up sleep and collecting a massive amount of bug bites, blisters and muscle pains from places they didn’t know they had muscles. . . .even if it means showering in facilities that we normally wouldn’t consider disrobing in, and blow drying our hair under hand driers in the public facilities . . . . even if it means walking desolate roads with only a head lamp, reflector vest, a can of mace and the baton that we need to get to our team mate so they can walk a desolate road with only a head lamp, reflector vest, a can of mace, absolutely no cell phone reception so they can deliver the baton. It is a challenge. You don’t want to drop the baton in a race, just like you don’t want to drop the baton in life.

Why do I put myself through daily workouts and spending weekend mornings training and then eventually competing in events like Portland to Coast? One is to develop friendships with team mates and competitors that go beyond the normal day in, day out relationships. Another is to develop that friendship within me – the one that shows me what I am made of and what I can accomplish when I put it on the line. But mainly I do it to remind myself that I am carrying the baton everyday of my life, and it does matter that I carry it well to the next person, and that, when it is my turn again, to receive the baton with enthusiasm, dedication and the commitment to my fellow humans to carry it to the best of my ability. And that is why I race.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Simple question, not so simple answer

Why do I want to write? I get asked that question every so often. It isn't that easy to answer in a social situation without having the person start backing up and get very quiet. So I usually just say that it is fun. And it is fun for me so I'm not being dishonest. But it is so much more than that.

Sometimes I write to stop my analytical brain from crunching numbers. That crunching sound gets very annoying when I’m not at work and when it isn’t me eating some potato chips.

Most of the time I write because I want to break through the ice and see what is really going on down deep inside. Sometimes I amazed at what comes out when I do finally break through the ice. Other times I’m shocked that I was actually thinking/feeling/believing something I wasn’t aware of.

One thing I am sure of, it doesn’t matter why I write as much as it matters THAT I write. I will share some of these things with you in due time, but for now, I’m going to take some of that chipped ice and make a margarita. Crap, where did I stash that blender?

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Things that made me happy this week


1. 11:30 pm French fry run. Sometimes you just gotta have French fries.

2. Playing with Jack. Such exuberance.

3. Writing poetry. Anybody wanna read it?

4. Making jewelry for my friends. I really like creating.

5. CUTE new shoes. I love cute shoes.

6. ZZ Top in my cd player in my car with the volume up and the top down.

7. Training for the Portland to Coast race. It feels so good to train.

8. Coffee from the 76 station. It's like going into Cheers bar. Everybody knows my name.

9. Planning a Namibia trip for my son to visit his little sister. COOL!

10. Watching Lucy sleep. Her legs get to moving like she is chasing a moose. I often wonder what she is dreaming about.

11. Trading pictures with my friend. I love my iPhone.

12. Playing on Facebook with my friends. Facebook is the new front porch. Come on by and sit a spell.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Things that made me happy this week

1. Working with Ellen Bass, Sage Cohen, Robert McDowell and Deborah Herman on poetry and writing.

2. Being part of The Grove finance team – that is pretty exciting


3. Driving my new car – it is pretty cool


4. Talking to old friends and meeting new friends – I love people


5. Black-eyed Susans in full bloom. BEAUTIFUL!


6. Having Sage Cohen ask for one of my poems. Wow!


7. Deb – she is a great hugger.


8. Being called a Warrior Moose – you kind of had to be there, but it was funny and endearing and still makes me laugh.
(send me an e-mail if you want to hear the story)

9. M U S I C – especially live blues at the Calapooia


10. Training for the Portland to Coast race. What a wonderful challenge

Thursday, August 6, 2009

The Sunflower

The sunflower looked beautiful
in my cobalt blue vase
a golden halo of translucent petals
reached away from the brunette hub
as if trying to experience something more
to touch one more piece of life
An olive grey stalk sipped water
a stalk that oozed out
some of its life when I cut it
to confine it
in my cobalt blue vase

As the days pass
the sunflower’s head bows
the fibrous stalk bends
as if the weight of the head
is too much for it to bear.
Petals that once were vibrant
are edged in rotting brown
the leaf is sagging
too tired to salute any longer
Scattered petals litter my table
falling like tears
surrendered
not wanting to be imprisoned any longer
in my cobalt blue vase.